There’s a lot to be said for powering through a project. For setting goals, and doing what it takes to accomplish them.<\/p>\n
But sometimes…. you just can’t. Sometimes life has other plans and other demands.<\/p>\n
For me it’s been the harshness of the winter and some things too personal for the blog (involving harassment against my cutie and a friend of a friend of mine). I haven’t been sleeping well and the deficit is playing havok with my moods. I spent the first week of January sick.<\/p>\n
Today it was all I could do to get to the co-working space this morning. Editing is out the question; my brain is a soggy goopy mess. My planner has a list of all the things I should have accomplished by now, as decided in December without knowing what January would bring; Space Crazies<\/em> won’t be finished. Not even close, and that thought pushes me near to tears.<\/p>\n But<\/strong> I am not at tears yet. Not yet. Instead of mourning Space Crazies,<\/em> I’ve made a list of all the smaller tasks that are outstanding. Emails I’ve put off; tootles that need typing–it’s a long list. But each item is small and focused and crossing each one–even if it represents the bare minimum of a ‘task’–gives me a little jolt to keep going. Enough small jolts and I may yet cross into February with only Space Crazies<\/em> outstanding. I’m going to try, anyway.<\/p>\n It’s cold outside, but I have a cup of the good coffee beside me and a gentle soundtracks in my headphones (Samorost 2 & 3, mixed with The Expanse and Tettix for a well-rounded trail mix of instrumentals). I have a few more pomodoros to do before I call it a day and walk home. Groceries on the way. Dinner to make. Maybe I’ll get to the laundry; maybe I won’t. It can keep. Maybe I’ll read instead. It’s cold outside and I am very tired.<\/p>\n January brings resolutions and the start of new plans, but I wish sometimes that we left that for March and used January as a rest month instead. But as I can’t change society I’ll just focus on changing myself.<\/p>\n Just keep swimming, friends. Be kind to yourselves, whatever form that takes.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" There’s a lot to be said for powering through a project. For setting goals, and doing what it takes to accomplish them. There’s also something to be said for knowing when to stop and rest.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":440,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3,7],"tags":[145,83],"class_list":["post-492","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-blog","category-personal","tag-procrastination","tag-space-crazies"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/victoriafeistner.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/492","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/victoriafeistner.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/victoriafeistner.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/victoriafeistner.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/victoriafeistner.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=492"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/victoriafeistner.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/492\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":966,"href":"https:\/\/victoriafeistner.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/492\/revisions\/966"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/victoriafeistner.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/440"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/victoriafeistner.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=492"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/victoriafeistner.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=492"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/victoriafeistner.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=492"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}